My anxiety killed

We live in a society where in if you stand out or you’re different you’d be considered an outcast. Someone who doesn’t belong, someone who shouldn’t be here. And it is with that same feeling those people who stand out start to feel alone or lonely. And it pushes them away from society more and more every time they feel unsafe or feel that no one really cares. This was the case for a timid little girl living in the utopia like city Tokyo. Bella was a playful child, a loving child. She had a family that loved her and friends who adored her. Her family moved here when she was 6 due to work so they’re pretty well of. Her brother is the person who she is closest to. Because she thinks he is the only person in the world who could understand her. He is the only person who knows how she feels. And how lonely she can get when he is not around her. Bella was a loner so that very intimate connection she has with her brother helped her be a bit more sociable than she thought. And it really helped her in the long run as she did well in school got high grades joined some of the extra-curricular groups like the varsity team, the choir, the orchestra, she played instruments like the piano, violin, guitar, drums and she even sung. Some would even say she had the voice of an angel. But one day she was walking down the street and encountered a homeless man which is rare in Tokyo but the homeless man was a wise man. A lot of people were surrounding him listening to him as what he was saying made sense. Some thought he was crazy some thought he was on drugs. But he was lucid, sober so it made a lot of them just wonder. Why was this man saying things that when you think about it deeply make sense. And so, people stayed around and listened to the man. And Bella was shocked when suddenly the man looked at her. And said things that hit awfully close to home. And went home after that thinking about what that man had said to her. So, she went to bed not telling her parents of her brother what she had experienced in the street that day. But she thought about what that homeless man said to her as she slept. She slept and she woke up although she was acting differently. She was gloomier and sadder than usual. And her family were the first to take notice so they asked Bella what was wrong and she answered it a bit sarcastically. So, it obviously put off her parents’ mood quite a bit so when Bella left for school she and her parents were quite mad at each other. Her brother was next. So, her brother just asked her a simple question “u good?”. And yet Bella just ignored her so her brother just kept on asking her trying to get her to talk to him. He kept on trying until Bella lashed out on him shouting at him. It made quite a scene where they were walking. So, her brother just ignored Bella for the rest of the day. When her favourite teacher approached her she just casually dismissed her as she was not in the mood. So, she just sat down at her seat went through all the classes. But when it was dismissal as she was coming out of the room one of the school bullies approached her and tried to diss her and make her feel bad. Initially one of Bella’s friends tried to make the bully stop and protect Bella. But Bella pushed her away and punched the bully and that punch resulted in the bully trying to get a punch back into Bella but the bully missed and she broke her hand and Bella broke her nose. So, Bella one and bully zero. (Yes, I know its cliché but I got to do what I got to do:).) Everyone cheered Bella on until some of the teachers started to make people disperse and obviously they sent Bella to the Principal’s office. She and the bully just sat there waiting for the principal to arrive. The principal arrived and she talked to girls mostly scolding the bully as she has gone to her office multiple times already. But she just talked to Bella as she understood how she was not at fault and that people have bad days sometimes and only takes a bit to make someone angry. So, she let Bella go but did have to inform her parents about this incident. So as Bella was heading home her brother couldn’t help but confront her about the incident as apparently it went viral. So, her brother just advised her on what to do and then they went home. As they arrived her parents being parents obviously scolded her as what kind of parents would they be if they didn’t? So, Bella went to her room got her phone put on her earphones and started to work on her homework. She worked until it was early in the morning. She got tired and fell asleep. The next morning, she woke up took a shower ate breakfast and went out for the day. It was a Saturday so she just went out to get some food for herself. She also noticed the fact that she woke up alone so knowing that she knew that her family was probably out of the house. And that she was home alone. So, what she did was just stay home watch Netflix and rest. At around 6 o’ clock a policeman came to the door. He asked for Bella. And Bella of course answered the door. The policeman was there to report an accident. Something bad had happened an accident involving 2 cars. It was a hit and run. Her family’s car had flipped 8 times. And the car which hit them hadn’t been found. All they knew was that it was a black SUV. The policeman offered Bella a chance to visit her family. So, they went to hospital where in her family was sent. She arrived at the ICU and saw all the doctor and nurses trying to resuscitate her brother but just a couple minutes later. Her brother had died. One of the doctors approached Bella to tell her some bad news. Her parents had died on arrival. So, now she is an orphan with her brother dead. The only silver lining she has is that she was close to her aunts and uncles. A few weeks go by. And it is time for her family’s funeral. She goes up to her family’s caskets and just cries. She puts the flowers down wait for the funeral to finish and goes home with her aunt and uncle. As soon as she gets home she checks her phone and sees one new message. It comes from the bully she had humiliated. It was a message insulting Bella on how it was probably her fault that her family died. How she drove her family away. Her brother away and how she is the sole reason she’s now an orphan and is why no one cares about her at all as she just brings bad to anywhere she goes. So, after reading that message Bella just thought about the message she had received and cried herself to sleep. Bella woke up and wondered why she was in her own room this time. She immediately went around the house looking for her family. She found her family at the dinner table and with a sigh of relief found out that it was all a dream. A nightmare, she thought she had lost her family but turns out they’re alive and perfectly healthy. Then she thought back as to what the wise homeless man had said to her a couple of days ago “a break can change you for the good or for the worse you can either become whole or be even more broken than before”. Remembering those words, she hugged her whole family telling them sorry and asking for forgiveness for mistreating them yesterday. She later asked for forgiveness from the teacher her friends and eventually the bully who she had humiliated. Now Bella lives her life being happy and eventually became close with her family. She still thinks about what that homeless man had said to her and she makes sure to keep it near to her heart. As it has helped her improve as a person.